I was going to wait till after the weekend to write, but someone said something that got me thinking. And that is always the best time for me to write. When it's fresh and on my mind...
"Just wait till you are out of high school...it gets better!"
I hear this all the time and it makes me sad. You would wonder why...School was horrible for me and you would think that this would give me warm happy feelings inside. It doesn't. It makes me fear for my children. I sometimes wonder what kind of a message this statement is teaching our kids. I think they have good intentions, but going about it the wrong way and with the wrong words.
I sit here writing. Almost 30 and I am not sure that people's judgments have gotten any better. I get it from every side sometimes it seems. There are days I don't know if I would have made it through if I didn't have God on my side.
Are those all YOUR kids?
You're TRYING for a boy aren't you?
I can't believe you are SO close minded!
Keep YOUR beliefs to yourself!
Why don't you SHARE more?
You share TOO much!
I can't believe you have PURPLE hair!
Why can't you be NORMAL?
Why DON'T you homeschool all of your children?
You actually BELIEVE the Bible?
People's thoughts and judgments come at you everyday. Sometimes people have good intentions. They truly want to know why you do something or why you believe something. Other times people just want to be cruel. We have this belief that people grow up, but I don't always think this is true. Perhaps some of us do.
Stop wishing your life to go faster just in the hopes that it will get better. Start focusing on something that actually matters. YOU and who God made you to be. What helps me is knowing that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. He's made me into this person that I am. Molded me and formed me. He didn't make me to be normal, because what is that anyway? Nope...He made me a daughter who doesn't always fit in, but always belongs in His hands.
I have become less of a people pleaser and more of a God pleaser. Someone who cares more about what He thinks and less about what the lady in the Library thinks. I have come to love who I am more, knowing the one WHO created me. And that is what has made it get better.
|Day 59 - Re-purposed Heart|