My 4 year old is so confident. Her reply to me this morning rocked my world. It rocked my soul awake.
"Yes! I looked in the mirror this morning!"
The days that I pick myself apart are days that my peace has left. My soul fills up with anxiety, worry and the heartache begins. Why can't I be perfect? Why can't I achieve all the things I want? My thoughts begin to spiral out of control...those days my peace has left nothing goes right. And you snap when your daughters eat the apples you bought just for you.
I learned an important lesson from Nehemiah this week. I struggled through the "after them" and "beside them" verses and felt like I didn't get anything. Perhaps it was just my bad attitude at the time. But...
I can't have the full peace of God unless I am willing to admit my need for Him. I can't have the full peace of God unless I admit I need others.
Nehemiah couldn't build the wall himself. He relied on God, and every step of the way prayer was his first thought. Asking God for help in every situation. He also realized that he needed the help of those around him. He gathered up all those he could and they worked together. My journey in life. My hike...is not walked alone. I have loads of people wanting to help. I have God just waiting for me to call out.
So...I do. I ask for peace. I ask for that calming in my soul. I reach out for support when I struggle and I long for those moments when God says...
"Sadie, you are beautiful! Did you know that?"
"Yes God! I looked in the mirror this morning!"