Thursday, February 20, 2014

Soul-filling Satisfaction

"For he satisfies the thirsty and fills the hungry with good things." Psalm 107:9

We live in a land of overindulgence. You want fast food...have it 24 hours a day! You want more T.V. Channels...Just add them. Want the newest fashions...go out and buy them. It's all around us. At our finger tips. We live life as gluttons in many areas or our life.

Don't like something? Want something different? Then most of us have the ability to change that....And we fill our lives with meaningless stuff. And as we continue to fill our stomachs. Fill our closets. Fill our homes...many others go without.

I wonder if in order to receive soul-filling satisfaction it will take a complete turn in our thinking. It's no longer about me and what I want, but it's about what others need and how I can fill a need in their lives.

So often I have walked by others an ignored an obvious need in their life. Living in a culture that screams self-reliance it's hard to break free of the thought...

They should be able to take care of themselves. They should be able to help themselves.

Many times if we see someone who can't help themselves we reject them. They are unworthy of our help. Why would I waste my time and energy to help anyone who is unwilling to pick themselves up, dust off the dirt and carry on?

Tears come to my eyes just thinking that at one time I had this attitude. I had these thoughts. How ungrateful I am for the help that was once given to me. Now my heart burst with the thought of how many people are in need of help just an arms length away from me. The joy filling their faces when a need is met. The prayers for help are answered. The heart of God rejoicing because we have opened our hearts to listen to Him. We are reaching out and taking care of the least of these.

Thursday, February 13, 2014

The Truth of the Missing Shoe

I have a problem with extremes. I am either all in or all out. Completely motivated one day...the next day laziness and apathy become my best friends. Motivation is squeezed from my veins until there is none left for me to muster up. This is the truth I listen to when I live my life. I refuse to do things because of my fear that I will take it to the extreme. So I continue to live in another extreme of just not doing anything.

How do I pull myself into action and stay within a happy medium. No extremes. Just living. Doing things that I love like running and staying out of both sides of the extreme. So last week I did just this. I told myself the truth that has always been there...I can do all things and keep it safe if I keep my focus on Christ and what he has for me.

I used the excuse for so long that I only has one tennis shoe. So naturally I can't go running. I can fit in a workout because I don't have the shoe that I need. I have looked for it, but I have to be honest. It wasn't a hard long searching. I searched for it like my children look for their things. I didn't look under anything and I didn't move anything. Because then...I would probably find it and I would no longer have an excuse to not do it.

My fear of the extreme is what kept me from really looking for that shoe. I have continued to let that fear keep me from staying healthy. If I continue to live in the extremes I will never be healthy. I will either be eating junk, not exercising and putting more stress on my body. Or I will restrict food, over exercise and beat my body into submission. Both extremes are not healthy. Both extremes will not help with healthy living.

Both extremes are poor examples to pass onto my daughters.  

So here is where my truth is. I bought a new pair of shoes and I am living in the middle. Loving it. Enjoying something that has been a passion of mine. Passing on something to my daughters that I can be proud of. Healthy living. Taking care of this body and living a life that will honor God. Truth...being set free.

Thursday, February 6, 2014

Peace Within my Soul

"Rayvena, you are so beautiful! Did you know that?"

My 4 year old is so confident. Her reply to me this morning rocked my world. It rocked my soul awake.

"Yes! I looked in the mirror this morning!"

Why can't I say that? It's the truth for any of us. If I look in the mirror I will see the beautiful woman that God has made just right. My nose isn't too big. It's just perfect. One eye may be slightly smaller than the other, but it adds to my unique qualities.

The days that I pick myself apart are days that my peace has left. My soul fills up with anxiety, worry and the heartache begins. Why can't I be perfect? Why can't I achieve all the things I want?  My thoughts begin to spiral out of control...those days my peace has left nothing goes right. And you snap when your daughters eat the apples you bought just for you.

I learned an important lesson from Nehemiah this week. I struggled through the "after them" and "beside them" verses and felt like I didn't get anything. Perhaps it was just my bad attitude at the time. But...

I can't have the full peace of God unless I am willing to admit my need for Him. I can't have the full peace of God unless I admit I need others. 

Nehemiah couldn't build the wall himself. He relied on God, and every step of the way prayer was his first thought. Asking God for help in every situation. He also realized that he needed the help of those around him. He gathered up all those he could and they worked together. My journey in life. My not walked alone. I have loads of people wanting to help. I have God just waiting for me to call out.

So...I do. I ask for peace. I ask for that calming in my soul. I reach out for support when I struggle and I long for those moments when God says...

"Sadie, you are beautiful! Did you know that?"

"Yes God! I looked in the mirror this morning!"